Stuck on Repeats

[Shape Shifter]

Look, man, my brother is dying from nasopharyngeal cancer.

That's the way it goes, I guess. I appreciate the PMs of support I've received from Greedy, TM, Hank and others. It really doesn't make a lot of sense and there's not a lot you can say. I can't say it either but I appreciate the effort.

He's currently being ravaged by infections. Imagine sinus pressure constantly in your head, that's what he's dealing with. It got so bad that it burst his eardrums.

I don't really know what to do other than to try to make him comfortable, which is impossible. It sucks seeing someone suffer like that. And he's lost so much weight he looks like a Holocaust victim or an anorexic.

It looks like the infections are about ready to kill him. My Mom is freaked out because she's one of those people who feel like if you work hard enough and figure things out, you can overcome life's struggles. She refuses to acknowledge that there are things in life bigger than her, or if she does, they're of the tidal wave variety.

This isn't fun. My brother and I have managed to have some cool moments together, like watching the Battle for Guadacanal on the Military Channel toether.

But it hurts.